in refusing to be yours, each face I cast my eyes upon exists as ocular evidence of your absence, thus signs of you appear everywhere: the eye tolerates no gaps in its field of vision. the simultaneous cooperative seeing of both eyes makes it impossible for a point to be projected onto both blind spots at the same time, preventing a hole in the visual field; in our being apart we are behaving like two eyes, but in a kind of reversal: it is precisely through this aperture of your vacancy that you are most clearly coming into view as no one is allowed to look upon g-d's face, you and I as beloveds turn our faces away from each other so that we may each become the other's worshipper next